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Here goes...

So this semester is already half-way over with. I can't believe it. Time flies when you are having fun and when you are really busy. I don't even know where to begin with this blog.

I think this semester has been a huge transformation for me. Nothing this semester has gone for me the way I expected it to. To start off, I decided to try taking 19 credit hours of class. I thought it would be easily manageable, but boy was I wrong. I got quickly swamped with more work than I could sanely manage. I realized how stubborn and stupid I was being trying to do so much, so I finally dropped a course which brings me back to the usual 15hrs. I have been able to have a social life with my current work load!

I also came into this semester thinking I would easily get a 4.0. Boy was I wrong--again. I am hoping that I get a 3.0! Classes have gotten much, much more difficult and I feel like I am not on top of my classes at all. I am so used to getting mostly A's and now I am getting low B's and C's. I can't believe myself, honestly. I'm not used to this at all--it hurts. It hurts so much that it has caused me to reflect on some areas in my life related to my academics. I really think its God's way of showing me how arrogant and prideful I have been about my academic acheivements. God is giving me a big wake-up call and I am listening. I am learning to swallow my pride and realizing that I don't know as much as I thought I did. God carries out his will in unexpected ways, I totally did not see this one coming. Through all of this I hope to come out a better person having learned from my mistakes. Sometimes pain is only way to truely realize something about yourself.

Another greatly unexpected thing has happened to me this semester as well. For years I have been praying, waiting patiently, and searching to find that person God has been wanting me to have. She is completely worth the wait I have been enduring for so long. She has everything I have been looking for and she continues to surprise me with more great things everyday. Her name is Rachel. I know our friendship is going to be an exciting and adventurous one--with God leading us wherever we may go. I finally get my chance to be the man God has shaped me to be and treat her like the princess she is with respect and integrity. Rachel, you truely are beautiful and amazing.

I am just finishing Purdue's great fall break--boy did I need it after three ridiculously hard exams in one week. I am already dreading finals :(....would Christmas break get here already! I can't wait till I can sit by the fire and eat cinnamon and sugar glazed roasted pecans with my family!

Only a three day week! w00t! Then I get to see Rachel! I can't wait!

I'm going to sleep!

-Josh